not-for-me speech

identity crisis and social struggle has been problems and dilemmas among the youth. and i won't make myself an exception to them. i am also one of those who hide their identities to fit in with the society or to be accepted by the family. but now, i am in the stage wherein i am doing me and not what the society dictates me to be.

critiques, disillusions and nonacceptance: these are just few of the things i deal with in my struggle for identity crisis. and it's difficult every time you can't be who you want. it's like being in the state of asphyxia. in this restrictions is where i dwell myself in the past. but more than the extrinsic reasons why i choose to be who i am is the intrinsic desire for self contentment and freedom. two of the things that are difficult to grasp considering me as a gay. i can't wear what i want without the excruciating judgments of the conventional few. i can't what i supposedly can because i fear what the society will tell.

however, this didn't refrain me to be at my best and always bring out the personality i keep hiding. in every activity i do, a project perhaps, i put my personality into it. and they become a reflection of myself. in being gay, i learn to value and respect others' unique self.  for it is in acceptance that we become confident and eventually bring out our utmost potentials. it is like helping others while helping myself at the same time.

now that i am here, and was endowed by the freedom i want. it is always to be remembered that along this is awareness over one's responsibilities.being you is not destructing yourself because of too much indulgent to freedom that you become unaware of the consequences. making boundaries is not a form of denial to oneself or suffocation and less spontaneity but a manifestation of one's true self with discipline and respect.