i like myself idle. hehehe

    Will blogging all my exhaustion this day will make me less exhausted? 

lets see. 

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nah. it would just worsen my mood. remembering all that happened the rest of my day will tire me

out. why not just shift out my thoughts to something else... something that would lighten my mood. :)

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i like myself simple and lazy. maybe that are the two reasons why i don't really join groups and organizations.  i can't put myself to be responsible and committed because then again: i am too idle for it. hell, i can't even wake myself on time, i wash my laundries just when I'm compelled to finally check my closet and find almost nothing to wear that i wash few of my clothes, i often forget my stuffs and the things i should do even if i write them down on my reminder notebooks or mobile calendar, and a lot more things that will justify my indolence.

therefore, if even the smallest tasks are hard to do, what more of those bigger things in an official group??

i know myself, so when i started joining this certain group, i told myself: quit it, fool. hahahah! i simply can't imagine myself being so active in an activist group. i mean, I'm one of the first people who mock these big-mouthed, eardrums-shattering street crier government haters! and so being one of them will make me... a mocker of myself! wouldn't that be so stupid? I'm actually talking the talk yet walking the other way. i can't and won't stand this hypocrisy long, so i better drop this stage drama as soon as possible.. like now. hehehe.

bye guys, it was an experience being with you and joining your movements the past days. but i can't go on shouting all your slogans half-assed. it would be an insult not only to myself but to you people, to you who have been so passionate and sincere with your objectives and agendas. i can't rotten a basket of healthy apples so i better roll out.

I'm grateful and proud that even in a short moment i experienced how it takes to be a devoted nationalist. all those rallying, street painting, room-to-room campaigns, meetings, discussions, props making, etc. where would i experience these things, only with you people. isn't it? 

i learned a lot from this. and i will forever cherish and materialize the important things i learned from this experience.