less bitter

think like a man.

i think like a man and act like one. now what's wrong with that?

dear you,
         i just thought of writing something today. it's been a while and nothing really changed except that i don't think much of you these days already. maybe i have already accepted the reality that we could never be what i always think about us would be. no never. not anymore. so i'll just let myself, my mind absorb that.
anyway, last week it came to my thought that it is impossible for me to be someone else. and there is no point and no essence acting like another person. because though i can be like her, i can never be parallel to her or be her cause i'm another person. i'm a being separate from another. and so even if i had the idea of her copied, i am and will never be like her. so that was really stupid of me to even think of doing things the other person's way.
        however, there are times when i thought of myself what if i am as gentle and proper as the other. would i be happy? no. just thinking about it really put every nerve in my system indignant. so i concluded, being that other person or acting to be that other even in my mind is stupid.