i hate to think how easy it is for you to say how much you love me yet it's damn hard for me to express that feeling. i hate you for having the guts to show me everything, from your weaknesses to your strengths, from what can make you sad or happy, from what you are inside and out. i hate how much you can easily please everybody to heed your will with just a slight sweetness you excrete. i hate you because in the short time we'd been together...you loved all the hate in me, you love those that hated me, you love me though i hate you, you love all my hatred and modified it to love.
maybe i envy you because i can't do the things you easily do. i can't do the things you do to me. i envy you because you're happy loving me and showing it to me and yet i can't feel what you fell because i don't make you feel loved. i envy your transparency, your confidence to show your fragility, your strength within, your trust that i won't shatter you like the glass though both of us know that i am capable of.
to be continued....
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