everything this summer onward will be a lot different, different in a sense that i am stepping on a very difficult path that requires maturity and ironed will to brace myself from the dangers of mental fatigues, stress bombs, pressures that might possibly damage a weak mental system. expecting to be grilled but not disheveled, expecting to be stormed but still trying to hold on to the ground, resilience through extreme and unwanted changes, these might all come to me hard and unexpected.... but this will be the life i will lead for the years to come. i am deciding for myself now, but i am not doing it alone. of course my parents should have knowledge of my decisions. however, i would not let them keep me from doing what i think i can, just because they think i cannot. and that is why through smooth and intelligible persuasion, i know i'll gain their approval and allow me to take my own course.
this is all so new to me. work and studies together... though i know how far i can get, how tough i can go, how long i can sustain. i know myself more than anyone else, i know that i can do it, because i can. and when i think i can, this serves as impetus in times i might be losing focus and hope. this is all too difficult, but i know myself, the more things get harder by day, the greater is my motivation to achieve more.
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